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    Thursday, April 13th, 2006
    12:10 am
    Q: Name one person who is on your mind right now?
    A: lauren
    Q: Do you think your life has been good so far?
    A: yes

    Q: Where is the last place you went?
    A: laurens
    Q: Who is the last person you called?
    A: lauren
    Q: Who is the last person you texted?
    A: lauren
    Q: Been cheated on?
    A: yea

    Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?:
    A: i don't know

    Q: Do you have any siblings?
    A: little bro
    Q: Do you smile often?
    A: yeah
    Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
    A: yes
    Q: Are you sentimental?
    A: very

    Q: What is your middle name?
    A: robert
    Q: Do you wish on stars?
    A: No

    Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
    A: no way

    Q: What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
    A: old milkshake in cohens room

    Q: Would you kill someone?
    A: if i needed to

    Q: When did you last cry?
    A: probably a week
    Q: Have you ever met anyone famous?
    A: Yes.

    Q: Do you like your handwriting?
    A: its alright

    Q: Are you a friendly person?
    A: I try to be
    Q: If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
    A: yes
    Q: What is your favorite school subject?
    A: English
    Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
    A: no
    Q: Do you regret anything?
    A: yes

    Q: WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?:
    A: blue

    Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?:
    A: 2, alie and bruiser
    Q: MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?:
    A: unbreakable
    Q: WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?:
    A: blue
    Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?:
    A: sleeping
    Q:I cant wait to:
    A: wake up and have an adventure
    Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR DAD?:
    A: 2 min. ago

    Q: WHO GOT YOU TO JOIN MYSPACE?:
    A: lauren
    Q: IS TOM ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?:
    A:yes

    Q: LOOK TO YOUR LEFT. WHAT'S THERE?:
    A: a wall and chair
    Q: IF YOU COULD DRINK ANYTHING RIGHT NOW WHAT WOULD IT BE:
    A: a paps
    Q: DOES ANYTHING HURT ON YOUR BODY RIGHT NOW?:
    A: neck
    Q: DO YOU OWN A PICTURE PHONE?:
    A: no

    Q: ADMIT SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF:
    A: Im lazy

    Q: EVER CRIED YOURSELF TO SLEEP?
    A: of corse
    Q: EVER CRIED ON YOUR FRIEND'S SHOULDER?:
    A: yes

    Q: DO SONGS MAKE YOU CRY?:
    A: depends

    Q: ARE YOU NORMALLY A HAPPY PERSON?:
    A: yeah
    Q: WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF A BULLY?:
    A: No.

    Q: IS YOUR SELF-ESTEEM EXTREMELY LOW?:
    A: not extremely high not extremely low

    Q: What's your natural hair color?:
    A: brown style

    Q: What color are your eyes?
    A: hazel

    Q: Current Piercings?
    A: no
    Q: Long or Short Hair?
    A: medium

    Q: Currently wearing?
    A: boxers and work shirt
    Q: Rings?
    A: not yet
    Q: Bracelets?
    A: No.

    Q: Is your hair up or down?
    A: down

    Q: Current Music:
    A: the beatles
    Q: Current Annoyance:
    A: money
    Q: Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing:
    A: sleeping or writing a paper

    Q: Current Favorite Book:
    A: the rum diaries

    Q: Current Refreshment:
    A: nothing
    Q: Current Worry:
    A: money
    Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
    11:12 pm
    So i work at Doc Green's gormet salads on the grill. Its different, but im enjoying it. It's money, and I can't exist with out it. The best part is that I get to work with my babydoll lauren. It kills me though, everytime i pass her and I know I can't just pick her up and kiss her. I;ll get over that, But i feel happy.
    Sunday, February 26th, 2006
    11:54 pm
    Im sorry for my existance
    this is not what i planned
    i want to be little again, i want to be innocent and free.
    im tired of apologizing,
    im sorry for wasting your time while u read this
    I wrote this in the bath tub where i can be alone
    i want to start over, but life isn't a game
    its written in stone
    ill be fine all alone
    things would be so easy with me gone
    i hope my brother keeps God close
    Dont let him turn out like me
    10:42 pm
    im sorry im sorry im sorry everyday
    im sorry im sorry im sorry for everything
    i count the days making up the while
    since the last time that ive seen u smile
    at me
    Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
    11:03 pm
    at peace
    at last at peace from a crazy day in a comfy bed.
    i miss my family and these pillows aren't the same.
    but ur smell fills my lungs
    another early adventure tomorrow
    heaven in your car, and well watch it fly out of the window
    you are me
    and i am you
    Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
    11:42 pm
    "daylight fading"-adam f. duritz

    Waiting for the moon to come and light me up inside
    I am waiting for the telephone to tell me I’m alive
    Well I heard you let somebody get their fingers into you
    It’s getting cold in california
    I guess I’ll be leaving soon

    Daylight fading
    Come and waste another year
    All the the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
    Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
    When we see the early signs that daylight’s fading
    We leave just before it’s gone

    She said ’everybody loves you’
    She says, ’everybody cares’
    But all the things I keep inside myself they vanish in the air
    If you tell me that you’ll wait for me
    I’ll say I won’t be here
    I want to say goodbye to you
    Goodbye to all my friends
    Goodbye to everyone I know

    Daylight fading
    Come and waste another year
    All the the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
    Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
    When we see the early signs that daylight’s fading
    We leave just before it’s gone
    Friday, November 25th, 2005
    5:01 pm
    I'm coming home tomorrow and hopefully alot of this stress will be destroyed. The answere to my anxieties will be reached either with a simple inhale or throwing stones down my throat. Either way this is my escape fuck off everyone who doesn't understand this. This is my life, my choices and my ability. I am no better then the earth we shit on. I'm not trying to be an angel, but Im nothing if Im not this high. Walk with me one time and share this feeling. You will be changed. I am the fire, this is the water, reality is the door. Walk out and see what else there is.
    Go ahead and insert your "sweet" or "cool story" As I am aproaching freedom....
    Thursday, November 24th, 2005
    9:31 pm
    Back around again.
    Strange nights these are at cedar key, ive never been fucked up with my family. Its a blessing to not have to hide these things for once. Instead I can just laydown outside on the pine needles amongst the bugs that I am equivalent to. These nights remeind me of a time where things felt right. And indeed things seem to feel alright at this moment. I've found a way back to a farmiliar feeling that I threw away and buried. The truth-I never really threw it, I hid it in the attic in my head. Im scared and excited and I just want to feel again. Like most things in my life recently I figure fuck it, give it a try. Live and be happy, I hope to be happy. I can't wait to come home. Back around again.
    Monday, November 21st, 2005
    11:42 pm
    tonite
    tonite is when the ash trays gather and rise against us men.
    these circles on the floor are conquering my vision, while my assosiate sits with life-less physical ability.
    I just hope to god i have some sort of hair left in the morning. i haven't stopped scratching my head for the past 2 hours.
    the dex must have mixed the alcohol and acetaminophen.
    god, how could it only be 11:50 pm right now? the show has been on for so long
    a small grey blotch is moving around on my bed, where i rest my head.
    the damp fur of the dog stinks but i endure it as we continue to be attacked.
    the whole house is shaking. more like rocking if i really pay attention. am i writing down everything that im thinking? fuck
    fuck this crazy grovernment that makes us live like we do. no money to help keep people alive with in our own country suffering from hurricane katrina but a million dollars a day to kill people in war. by people i mean not only soldiers but women and children. I have a friend in iraq who has personally shot and killed a 5 year old child to follow an order passed on by the BOSS.
    We, thats right, we are the ANTI-CHRIST. We spread our christianity and our ideals and our culture across the globe because were america and were the best!!! we take over territory and change the way people have lived their lives for centuries. why..........global domination at it's best.
    these blueprints have been made for many many years. OPEN YOUR EYES!!!! The end is coming the apocolypse is just a metaphore for international nuclear warfare.

    My assosiate rises and talks.........he's alive thank god!!!
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